Then he opened their minds, so that they could understand the Tanakh. Luke 24:45
Has the Lord opened your eyes yet? So you understand his truth and way? As the heavens are above the earth so are the ways of God above our ways.
The Lord teaches through trials, tribulations, many problems and dark times. And the Lord said to us, “take what you learned in the dark and profess it to the people.”
Now the question is, where does this fit in modern religion? The short is it doesn’t!
Modern religion tries to make any suffering minimal, praying over people to a god who does not exist and asking for healing that never comes. So then they either curse God or shrug it off as just bad luck, something normal. I watch people die from cancer, from the shot, from many treatable or reversible health issues. Issues we should not have in the first place because they are man made with the man made foods, drinks and meds we have now. Which includes the way we make the food in cooking it and in the fields with poisons.
Then we do not get the connection that it is our own fault we have these health problems, mental problems and mostly Spiritual problems.
As I wrote yesterday, my wife is going through some things and making life hell, mostly for herself because I simply stopped caring. If she wants to keep living in this lie and evil she is letting into our life, so be it, it is her decision. But I refuse to follow and cooperate. Which seems to even make her more upset because when she acts up I remain completely silent and without emotion. At first I tried to help, but she did not like my help or the way I tried to help. The way I tried to help was the way God does things. God does not come in and defend you in your lies, trying to get everyone else to agree to you and your ways. Instead he points out to you how you are wrong.
The thing of it is, when we see it and then think the way he expects us to think. It makes you strong so nothing can move you. This is one of the main things the Lord is showing me in this ordeal. As my wife causes problems and tries to get me to cooperate, I remain silent. And she threatened divorce, to which I do not reply. In my mind it is simply “I do not care.” If that is what she does, it is the will of the Lord. Amen! So be it.
I do not believe it will however, I believe the LOrd is doing things in her that will finally break her to where she stops the fake “christian” stuff and start to obey the Lord Yeshua instead. And in the mean time, he is making his truth known in me as well of how far I have come. Because honestly with my first wife, she did less than my wife now and I got divorced because of it. But then I also was not the same man as I am now. ANd it is all because the Lord has “opened my mind, so I understand how life is. He did this through the things I suffered, and also just when it is needed.
Keep in mind the disciples suffered tremendously, especially Peter with the Lords death and being scattered and scared. Imagine how your life would be turned upside down so quickly, even though the Lord told them it would happen.
The Lord also reminded me of many things today from my past. And one of them was when I was very upset with a woman I dated who cheated on me. For almost a month I was upset and could not hear the Lord. The Lord does not come in and calm you down and tell you good things, or what you want to hear especially when you are mad.
Then one day, he spoke to me after calming down enough, and his words were very different than I thought. I expected him to support me and feel bad for me, just like my friends and church people. Instead he said “what about you?” So I said what do you mean, she cheated? So the Lord said, “did you act in Love? Were you patient and kind… See 1 Corinthians 13. As he hit each point of the definition of Love, I felt condemned for having fallen short on almost every point. The shift happened from her issues to mine. And ever since that day, I understand and live in Love because of the hard way it was taught to me.
No one can live this love unless it was taught to them in a similar way. It is one thing to read it over and over and even memorize it, which I had. But when the trial came, I abandoned it and lived in anger instead. Reading and learning something is one thing. Living it is another, and you only learn to live it through the trials and tribulations.
So back to my wife, I know God is working in her, I see the results at times. But I also see her setbacks and why she has them. ANd I tell her why and she rolls her eyes sometimes or gets upset other times. But then I know the above statements, she must learn as I did, in a very tough thing to deal with. Letting yourself get all the way there in your follies, which hers is an anger issue, and she knows it and will tell you it is.
The other truth the Lord has shown me is the whole verse about “he who loves his mother, father… More than me is not worthy of me. Because the short and agreeable way out with my wife would be to stand up for her even though she is wrong and not in the truth. But I can’t, I know the Lord and I know his truth and know if I stand up for her, she will remain in the sin and I will enter into it as well, I’d have my own set back.
Recently I read about King Saul and how this happened to him. He was anointed King and was doing good, following the prophet Samuel’s advice from what he received from Adonai. But then he decided to do his own thing, which the Lord got upset about and took away his Spirit and sent a bad spirit instead. One that tormented Saul often.
Many think God would never do anything like that, or some that the Father God is no longer like that since his son died on the cross. But is he? Did not Paul write “God will send a great deception so the people will believe the lie?”
God always sends us according to our follies to either let us get worse in our own ways. Or figure it out and repent and turn from those ways and let him teach us clearly. These are the only two choices, all the other ones are subject to these. The running to friends and family or a church system and crying about your pain, falls under staying in our follies.
We must understand this, yet we cannot unless the Lord shows us and opens our minds. So how does this happen?
Well, we must seek and thou shall find. Knock and the door will be opened for you. The problem is when we first start to seek, the trials come and we abandon the seeking because of the pain. Plus we do not have anyone around us who went through something like this to fall back on for support and wise instruction, To feed them milk until they can eat real food directly from God. Because a man of God like myself has few people, maybe none, who even listen to him. It is a lonely life actually as God narrows your interest down to nothing except him. Because the people simply do not want to hear it, they prefer to remain in their life the way they are rather than to make changes like the ones they know I made. Most see it is crazy, so one after another they turn and walk away. And just ask my wife, it is hard to live with a man like me. Because she loves to talk and talk and talk. And I keep being reminded of the verse from proverbs. Even a fool seems smart when he keeps his mouth shut. And the verse where Yeshua said we will be judged according to our small talk or gossip.
We must be very careful as to what we let into our mind, so what then comes out of our mouth is of God. Because you will be judged according to it. We all have fallen short and said things not of God in our lifetime before we came to know God. But after you know him and what he expects, you have to stay the course with him and so much changes like what you let into your mind and what you let come out of your mouth. Provers says a lot about a “fool” and I see so many foolish men in our world today, seems more than ever. But then when I was a fool living in the fools world, instead of Gods Kingdom. I did not see it as foolishness like I do now that God has opened my eyes.