Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord! Psalms 24:17
Wait on the Lord and be of good courage. He shall strengthen your heart. Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Its not mistake to repeat the verse, that was the intent. The Lord is making me wait and wait for a few things, and once again testing my faith in regards to money and paying bills. It is amazing to me that we have as much as we have, and the place I invested some of it was supposed to be returned every month and then reinvest it. On top of it one of the banks we have some money in that I can get out any business days, it went out of business. So I have plenty of cash to get my hands on but I cannot access any of it today.
I do have some silver. I could run to San Diego and sell and have cash, but I really do not want to do that because it is really running nice right now. But if I have to then it will be done.
So this time around is a bit different because it is not like all my money is in real estate, but it is still a short term cash flow problem, another test, but much easier to deal with than before, partially because of being able to get money today if needed, but more so I already been down this path a few times and the Lord always works it out for me, so why would this time be different?
The second, and more pressing part of this is the lingering lawsuit which is well over a year into it now. I am expecting the judge’s verdict any day now, but it still does not come. I want to push the deal, have all our ducks in a row for when it comes and we move forward with whatever the outcome is from the judge, I want action the same day. So I keep pushing and asking things of my partner.
There are a few reasons I want in, one is to get it sold ASAP after the ruling. But also there are some settling issues that need to be addressed. It should be addressed sooner than later.
So this whole waiting on the Lord is not for me, I do not like it. It is harder for me to “wait on the Lord” and his timing than dealing with major problems. Waiting is just not in my soul, but I find myself waiting and sitting around with not much going on in life. There is no business, no hurry on settling these things. Not much of anything. It gives a lot of time with the Lord and my family, which is appreciated. But again “waiting” is not in my make up, so it is one of the most difficult things I need to do. For most people procrastination is the biggest issue, I am the opposite.
Because I was speaking with my partner this week, asking about a possible deal to sell one unit and also asking about what we will offer the guy when the judge rules (assuming the ruling is what we think it will be). It is fresh on my mind. And remains on my mind.
So then when reading the verse of the day this morning, this piercing verse comes, “wait on the Lord, be of good courage! And he will strengthen your heart.”
And the opposite happened to me also, which I know was of satan. Because the verse of the man who had a bumper crop and said to self take time off, you have in abundance, and he died that night.” The evil one was trying to get me to think otherwise, like I am being lazy and the Lord does not like it. But immediately the thoughts of truth came in. And reminded me, it is not me as to why there is no business, the economy has made it that way not just for me but all us agents. When I do have a client I immediately follow up and through with them, but I cannot make someone want to buy or sell a property and use me. He also reminded me that I am moving into the next phase of life and learning, like learning to “wait on the Lord.” I have waited on him many times in life, but this one seems like the mother of all tests of waiting. And is a tough one, I have plans already of how it will go down and what I plan to do. Which is also a very dangerous thing to do because in my experience with God, my plans never come to happen the way I think they will. Instead the outcome always comes with a test and then most of the time the final part is better than what I expected. Very different but also much better.
So why do I continue to push things and why do I continue to plan things in my mind? It is a hard habit to break, not sinful nor something to keep me out of heaven, but more a deal of, look at the dysfunction that comes from your planning and pushing instead of just living day to day in me. Because tomorrow will have its own problems, just deal with what you have to deal with today, and then do them in Yeshua, by hearing him and obeying him.
Also, the home build in Guerrero is another “waiting on the Lord thing.” It rains and rains daily down there for about 3 months now, so the construction is seriously delayed. We do not even have the roof on yet and I expected to be done by now. We hope to have the roof on this next week as finally there is not much rain in the forecast. And then if it rains no problem as they can work inside. But man, it is difficult for me to sit and watch the delays and also see all going on in the world and wondering when the next WW 3 will come? It literally could be today considering some of the things going on, and we are not even ready when it should have been. But the delays are on the Lord, and he has a reason. I also trust in him to take care of us, after all this is his deal, not only the purchase of the land and build, but also the delays. There is nothing I can do about it.
So I sit and “wait on the Lord, and am of good courage, and let him strengthen my heart.” In patients, which is one of the main things of Love, patients.